It's been rough for me lately. The stress finally got to me last week. I found myself in bed, bawling my eyes out, & without any urge to move from that one spot. This happened on several nights.

Everything seems to be on me right now...it's all caught up. I've felt a little better the last few days, that or I'm really good at pretending. Honestly, I'm not sure which one it is right now.

I keep getting these incredible urges to not do anything & I just start crying. I tell myself its dumb & that there's no reason to act like I am...which just seems to make it worse. Oh & god forbid someone says something to me at that point, that just makes it worse.

I don't know what to do. I don't ever remember feeling like this before. Should I go see someone? Do I need to go on some sort of medication? Which I've never thought was something I'd consider, but now it seems like a good ides. Or, do I continue trying to fix it all myself? Even though I've been doing that for a while now & this is where its gotten me.

I don't know what to do.