Soon, promise

It's all been crazy lately. I have some pictures of the house but need to put take a couple more & I've had the request of a video as well.

Work has been keeping me busy as its getting close to our code freeze. Come November 16th, there will be no changes made to the site. It's peak time for retail & no one wants to mess with that.

So that means, that anything they want changed on the site before that is all of a sudden on our plate. It sort of reminds me of the end of the semester at school & that teacher you had who had not planned her lessons out well enough is all of a sudden having you do all sorts of work. That's me now. I'll be working this weekend, trying to play catch-up.

Oh, and tomorrow, because I'm apparently psychotic, all 3 animals have a vet appointment. Both dogs & the cat are making the trip.

But that's about all for now...pictures & video soon...SWEAR!

Soon, promise

It's all been crazy lately. I have some pictures of the house but need to put take a couple more & I've had the request of a video as well.

Work has been keeping me busy as its getting close to our code freeze. Come November 16th, there will be no changes made to the site. It's peak time for retail & no one wants to mess with that.

So that means, that anything they want changed on the site before that is all of a sudden on our plate. It sort of reminds me of the end of the semester at school & that teacher you had who had not planned her lessons out well enough is all of a sudden having you do all sorts of work. That's me now. I'll be working this weekend, trying to play catch-up.

Oh, and tomorrow, because I'm apparently psychotic, all 3 animals have a vet appointment. Both dogs & the cat are making the trip.

But that's about all for now...pictures & video soon...SWEAR!

Soon, promise

It's all been crazy lately. I have some pictures of the house but need to put take a couple more & I've had the request of a video as well.

Work has been keeping me busy as its getting close to our code freeze. Come November 16th, there will be no changes made to the site. It's peak time for retail & no one wants to mess with that.

So that means, that anything they want changed on the site before that is all of a sudden on our plate. It sort of reminds me of the end of the semester at school & that teacher you had who had not planned her lessons out well enough is all of a sudden having you do all sorts of work. That's me now. I'll be working this weekend, trying to play catch-up.

Oh, and tomorrow, because I'm apparently psychotic, all 3 animals have a vet appointment. Both dogs & the cat are making the trip.

But that's about all for now...pictures & video soon...SWEAR!

OMFG I'M GOING TO BE A MOTHERFUCKIN HOMEOWNER!

That's right. A an offer of mine has FINALLY been accepted. It took a total of 10 offers...then 1 came back accepting the offer...then another! Last week was a pretty crazy week. I picked 1 of the 2, because well I'm not made of money & couldn't afford both.

But I will be posting pictures soon. I hope to go by the house some day this week. I've got to start thinking about what I'm going to do with the house. I spent a few hours on Real Simple & Apartment Therapy drooling over ideas. What colors will I paint? Where will I put everything? Where will I get more furniture?

It's all very exciting. Oh a bit about the house. It's a 3 bedroom about 1400 square feet, single story. It's all pretty basic right now, which I'm happy about. I'll definitely need to paint & from there its up in the air.

So other than that crazy news, it's been about the same. I freaked out a bit when the house news came about. Someone is going to sell me a house...me! So I'm a bit stressed about that. This is basically how I feel about it all...

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Other than that I'm still feeling a bit off. I just don't feel as happy as I usually do. I find myself spending more & more time by myself & enjoying more & more. Today I spent about 90% of the day in bed watching tv & I loved it. Yea I felt like a lazy shmuck but I didn't have to deal with anything.

I don't enjoy much of what I used to. It's hard to describe...but I don't feel like me. There has been a lot of tension between Ham & myself. Every other word that comes out of his mouth makes me want to kill him. We're both going through a lot & I really don't know if we'll make it through this all...I just really don't think he's in the same place as me. He doesn't seem to understand what I'm going through & trying to accomplish & I'm not sure if he wants to.

But I don't think he understands how upset I am over it all. We need to have a talk soon.

OMFG I'M GOING TO BE A MOTHERFUCKIN HOMEOWNER!

That's right. A an offer of mine has FINALLY been accepted. It took a total of 10 offers...then 1 came back accepting the offer...then another! Last week was a pretty crazy week. I picked 1 of the 2, because well I'm not made of money & couldn't afford both.

But I will be posting pictures soon. I hope to go by the house some day this week. I've got to start thinking about what I'm going to do with the house. I spent a few hours on Real Simple & Apartment Therapy drooling over ideas. What colors will I paint? Where will I put everything? Where will I get more furniture?

It's all very exciting. Oh a bit about the house. It's a 3 bedroom about 1400 square feet, single story. It's all pretty basic right now, which I'm happy about. I'll definitely need to paint & from there its up in the air.

So other than that crazy news, it's been about the same. I freaked out a bit when the house news came about. Someone is going to sell me a house...me! So I'm a bit stressed about that. This is basically how I feel about it all...

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Other than that I'm still feeling a bit off. I just don't feel as happy as I usually do. I find myself spending more & more time by myself & enjoying more & more. Today I spent about 90% of the day in bed watching tv & I loved it. Yea I felt like a lazy shmuck but I didn't have to deal with anything.

I don't enjoy much of what I used to. It's hard to describe...but I don't feel like me. There has been a lot of tension between Ham & myself. Every other word that comes out of his mouth makes me want to kill him. We're both going through a lot & I really don't know if we'll make it through this all...I just really don't think he's in the same place as me. He doesn't seem to understand what I'm going through & trying to accomplish & I'm not sure if he wants to.

But I don't think he understands how upset I am over it all. We need to have a talk soon.

OMFG I'M GOING TO BE A MOTHERFUCKIN HOMEOWNER!

That's right. A an offer of mine has FINALLY been accepted. It took a total of 10 offers...then 1 came back accepting the offer...then another! Last week was a pretty crazy week. I picked 1 of the 2, because well I'm not made of money & couldn't afford both.

But I will be posting pictures soon. I hope to go by the house some day this week. I've got to start thinking about what I'm going to do with the house. I spent a few hours on Real Simple & Apartment Therapy drooling over ideas. What colors will I paint? Where will I put everything? Where will I get more furniture?

It's all very exciting. Oh a bit about the house. It's a 3 bedroom about 1400 square feet, single story. It's all pretty basic right now, which I'm happy about. I'll definitely need to paint & from there its up in the air.

So other than that crazy news, it's been about the same. I freaked out a bit when the house news came about. Someone is going to sell me a house...me! So I'm a bit stressed about that. This is basically how I feel about it all...

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Other than that I'm still feeling a bit off. I just don't feel as happy as I usually do. I find myself spending more & more time by myself & enjoying more & more. Today I spent about 90% of the day in bed watching tv & I loved it. Yea I felt like a lazy shmuck but I didn't have to deal with anything.

I don't enjoy much of what I used to. It's hard to describe...but I don't feel like me. There has been a lot of tension between Ham & myself. Every other word that comes out of his mouth makes me want to kill him. We're both going through a lot & I really don't know if we'll make it through this all...I just really don't think he's in the same place as me. He doesn't seem to understand what I'm going through & trying to accomplish & I'm not sure if he wants to.

But I don't think he understands how upset I am over it all. We need to have a talk soon.

The neverending question

It's been rough for me lately. The stress finally got to me last week. I found myself in bed, bawling my eyes out, & without any urge to move from that one spot. This happened on several nights.

Everything seems to be on me right now...it's all caught up. I've felt a little better the last few days, that or I'm really good at pretending. Honestly, I'm not sure which one it is right now.

I keep getting these incredible urges to not do anything & I just start crying. I tell myself its dumb & that there's no reason to act like I am...which just seems to make it worse. Oh & god forbid someone says something to me at that point, that just makes it worse.

I don't know what to do. I don't ever remember feeling like this before. Should I go see someone? Do I need to go on some sort of medication? Which I've never thought was something I'd consider, but now it seems like a good ides. Or, do I continue trying to fix it all myself? Even though I've been doing that for a while now & this is where its gotten me.

I don't know what to do.